IAM - Instant Advanced Meditation

> Freya Mathews is a respected Australian ecologist and philosopher
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I'd didn't mean to suggest she wasn't respectable. I'm objecting to attaching her speculation to the idea of a nondual truth underlying all. It's a mistake made often. In the liberal interpretation, it's all one, like a the sum total of everything, the collection of objects. But in the Vedantic sense, the One is one, and underlies all, making that one with the One too. But the One is not a collection of things. Things have a reality to other things, not to the One, according to Vedanta as I understand it.

> I also sense in your interactions with myself and others a kind of shutting down of others.
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You should have seen me 7 years ago.

> I am simply wondering what may reveal itself if you explore your motivations and sense of self and other.
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That's all worth pondering. I guess I'm up against a colossus – the width and breadth of occluding ideas about self-realization that populate... nae, absolutely overwhelm spiritual culture. That is the fire behind my words as far as I can discern at this moment. I'm just completely fed up with the monstrous preponderance of noncritical thinking that occurs in and around what folks fool themselves into believing are absolute spiritual truths. As the William Holden character says in "Network", "I'm mad as hell, and I'm not going to take it anymore!"

There is obviously *much* room for personal improvement in my life. Part of that may be to chill out a bit when it comes to stomping other peoples' ideas about nonduality. But you know what? I've been trying to do that for over the last 10 years. I've made great strides, but the primary impulse to quash ignorance about nondual truths has not changed a bit, almost as if it was hardwired into my brain (or perhaps a manifestation of a psychopathology.)

The depressing prevalence of ridiculous notions about the nondual truth almost demands more extreme measures. An excuse for me to be an asshole? Maybe. But I've found gentle prodding to be just an ineffectual as my bluster. But the bluster is more in sync with the manifestation of my personality, so I go with it instead. It turns plenty of people off. But those who get it, get why I do it. They may not agree with the method, but they understand the rhyme and reasoning behind it. That encouragement keeps me going when I know all too well that I'm an ant trying to remove the sands of the Sahara Desert.

What does this all say about my sense of self and others? Let's put it this way, I'm twice as hard on myself as I may seem to be on others. For every caning I deliver online, I've given myself three. Fortunately, I'm quite secure in the knowledge that there is no one there to receiving the canings, so while I may give myself grief all the time, it's duration is comfortably brief.